| ok.. tOday is just the wOrst day of my life.. God! im so stupid.. ksi. today. tumakas ako.. nag "adventure" kmi.. but i never thought that it would be my last!! shit!.. nahuli ako ng mom kO.. ang pak!! she got my phOne!!!!! i mean.. whats my phone gOt to dO with this ba?!!? ughh!! she gO so mad at me!! eh wala naman guys eh!! so bakit ba?!!?! ugh!!! why did she have to get my phOne?!?!! sheesh!!! ang sama nya.. i hate her.. well.. ryt now.. because im so furious with her.. but i mean. hello.. who wouldn't be mad?!?! but then.. it was my fault in the first place.. so i accept it.. but.. she's just so cruel!! sabi pa nya.. nandadamay daw ako ng mga tao!.. hello!!.. so what?!?! she dsnt trust me!?!? she dsnt trust her own friggin daughter?!?!? wOW naman!! sama nya!!!! she thinks im so B.I. just because i came from poveda.. and she think ppol ion mc dont make takas and shit.. well hellO.. they do too noh!!!! kapal nya.. she thinks ako ung pinakamasama.. untamed.. and super.. big BITCH of the batch daw!??!? putik!! kapal nya!!!!! what kind of a mother is she!??! and here's the wiiner.. she told me pa.. that she loves me so much thats why she's dOing this?!!? tsssss!!! whatever!!!!!!! i hate her!!!!!! |
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finally..
haaayy.. FINALLY..! im
over him!.. as in.. WALa na.. i dont care about him anymore!!!!!!!!
WOhOOO!!
i dont like him anymore.. and i never will...
he's sO not worth my time and effort.. hahaha. ayoko na.. haaaay..
Sobrang.. wala na.. as in.. tapos na.. haaayy..
Omg!.. wait.. ghetto ba ako!?!? db hindi
naman!?!?! im not naman a gimikera ah!.. Or smething.. db?!?! rarrr.
jahm said i am!.. bwsit!.. napaisip ako nun eh.. hahaha.. prO.. db im
not naman.. ata..
haaaay.. ewan ko ba..
tinatamad akong magbLOG.. laTER.. tomOrrow.. or whatever.. till next
time.. babOosh!!ü
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stupid me..
im sO stupid.. i told him na the truth.. adn now.. i regret
telling him.. things are sO different nOw.. and i swear.. i have been
crying a lot lateLy!!!!!!!!!! rarrr.. its sO annoying... i like him ..
a lot.. haaay.. as in.. sObrah!.. and.. well.. i guess he dsnt.. ppol
said he dOes.. prO its SO impossibLe naman eh.. db??.. i just had tO
let GO.. i cudnt take it.. but.. u know what hurts more?.. nOt having
him around.. nOt being able tO txt him.. tok tO him on the phOne.. nO
more.. "hey migs" sa mcdO.. nO more.. completely NONe.. nadA.. wala..
and that hurts more.. having him as a friend.. was just sO much
better.. bUt.. nOw.. i gues... things are just different.. nOt hOw i
expected them tO be.. and nOt hOw expected it tO feel.. it totally
hurts. sO much that.. i cant even feel my heart beating.. yeah.. its
dramatic.. but.. im serious.. my heart just aches.. sO much.. rarrr..!
what the heck am i gOing tO dO?! i miss him.. i dont know y.. i just
dO.. i like him.. a lOt.. i dont know y.. but i just dO.. i have nO
idea on what i am going dO anymore.. it just hurts a Lot.. and i have
never in my life been this sad.. God.. im sO stupid.. i have just done
something stupid and.. i will never fOrget this mistake of mine.. fOr
the rest of my life.. im sO stupid.. i regret this sO much.. if only i
cud turn back time.. i wud.. and change it. because my life was sO much
better with you ryt by my side.. even if you were just a friend..
but nOw.. i have to live
with this life.. knowing you dont feel the same.. knowing that.. you
know how i feel.. and knowing that you wont be there anymore.. that is
complete sadness and complete emptiness. i miss you.. and i hope that
things wud gO back tO the way they were. *&^!) sObrang.. ewan ko na
anOng gagawin kO.. rarrr.. what am i gOing tO dO??!! i cant live like
this.. haaay.. im sO confused nOw.. aLL i knOw is that i was sO stupid
tO let this happen.. when.. i cud have prevented it tO end up like
this.. wen i cud have just kept it all inside instead.. haaay.. sO
stupid.. its all my fault.. and i regret this.. nOw.. i get.. complete
sadness and emptiness as my consequence... God.. how much stupid can i
get???
i guess.. i just have to
live my life knowing you're gOne and knowing that.. there never will
what it th0ught wud be.. and im gOing tO spend all these time.. missing
you.. and getting even more hurt because i lost someone who meant a lot
tO me.. and that is you.. haaay.. stupid me..
ill bLog again some
other time when i feel much better and probably when ill stop crying..
at least.. nOt this way...
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oohhkay...
been thinking about a lot of things.. and well.. maybe i
should just forget it.. this is such a distraction fOr me.. and.. i
just cant take it anymore. maybe we are better of as friends.. hahaha..
oh well.. i odnt care.. at least we still get to talk and kinds hang
out?.. hahaha. i dunO.. ayoko na.. i dont want tO like him. he dsnt
like me anyway sO.. whats the use.. db? rarrr.. ewan ko ba!..
we're just friends.. nothing more.. and i cant accept that.. haay.. im ok.. hahha!!ü
cge.. il blog nalang later.. i just woke up.. and i woke up in the wrong side of the bed.. rarrr...
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haaayyyyy..... another day...
woke up today at like.. 7..
replied to all the pol hu txtd me while i was slepping, haha.ü then.
slept again.. woke up at 10.. ate breakfast then logged in sa ym and
nag connect sa mirc.. hahaa.. then i slept again.. and then i woke up
again at around.. 1:15?.. ü hahahah.ü then ate lunch.. then took a
bath!.. hahahah.ü haaaay.. grabe.. i hate it when he toks about her..
or the past or whatever.. rarrr.. obvious naman he dsnt like me eh,
db?.. sObrang.. i can see it.. and i bet he knows i like him.. and it
sucks.. big time.. ksi medyo.. nakakailang when i see him.. sO prang..
whenever i see him na.. nakakabadtrip.. haaay.. ewan ko. ang labO..
whats so annoying pa is that.. i
think of him.. like.. all the time.. fOr some pathetic reason..! i
wanna stop!.. but i cant.. !!! why?!!? rarrr.. nakakairita!.. crush ko
lang naman sha eh. prO.. prang..hes always in my mind.. bwsit!.. nako..
prang... ewan ko.. laBo tlga.. i wanna stop liking him.. i dont want to
like him any longer.. but i just.. cant!.. rarrrr.. why?!?!
he dsnt like me.. and if i
like him.. prang. things are different.. and like.. eversince he knew
that i like him.. its like.. he's been avoiding me.. we practically
dont talk na nga eh.. haay.. annoying.. it hurts.. and its sad..
bkt ba ako nagkakaganito?!!? i just wanna forget about him. and just be
friends!.. because i miss talking to him.. i miss.. actually.. i want
tuesday to happen again.. ksi.. sobrang.. that day.. ang saya nyang
ksma, kausap and lahat na..
he doesnt like me.. i can tell..
my friends said prang he wants to go with me.. or hang out with me or
whatever.. na he kinda likes me.. they can tell.. prO.. bkt i cant feel
it?.. ang labO tlga.. as in.. sObrah!.. haay.. ewan ko.. what the heck
am i going to do??
he practically dsnt txt that much na nga
eh.. nako.. hOw annoying.. rarrr.. oh well.. bahala na.. bsta.. i like
you.. but i wannt stop.. i think of you.. but i wanna stop.. rarrrr.. i
want to forget about you.. but it'll just hurt me even more.. haaay.. i
just want tuesday to happen again. and i just want us to be friends..
and just.. be normal.. rarrr... haaay.. ill end it here nalang.. bye..
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